Are you serious?

So yesterday I go to get the mail...and get a baby shower invitation from E's 20y/o cousin. So, I'm happy for her, but a little sad. I really want to give his grandma her first great grandchild. I'm also worried about his cousin. She is very young, and ran to the alter because she was pg. I hope everything works out for her.
That an my 45y/o cousin being pg just boggles my mind. I can't help but wonder why not me, but I know that God has a plan for us, and I just have to trust that.
On the plus side, we have officially made plans to go to the adoption orientation on July 26th. So, hopefully we will have our child in the next year! I am so excited to learn more about the process. We will be adopting through the county, and the children range from newborn to teenagers. They even have it like through private agency's where the birth mother picks you. Luckily, you don't have to pick an older child already in foster care. We want to do that eventually, but we want to start with a baby. Plus, private adoption can get pretty expensive, and through the county it is nearly free. The babies are usually drug babies, so they do require special attention and love...something I have been storing up for the last 21 months since we started trying for a baby.
Hopefully I am able to maintain my patience through this process.