Ugh...

Well, yesterday sucked. We went to the funeral for a girl I grew up with. She died on the 10th of Leukemia. It sucks. She was just one of those people who always greeted you with a smile, and asked you how you are doing and really meant it. The service was really nice, and I was doing ok until the end. Her husband walked up to the casket, kissed his hand, touched her picture, and fell apart. The whole room fell apart after that. It was so sad.
I am happy she is in a better place and not suffering, but I am so very sad for her family. It is so hard to lose someone so young, she was only 27...Prayers for her family would be greatly appreciated. Her name is Stephanie.

Kick in the Face

That's what I would describe it when your fertility doctors office calls and says, "We no longer accept your insurance"!!! What the hell!?!?! Just when things were looking good, WHAM, a nice swift kick in the face.
apparently my insurance is no longer contracted in the state of California, so this doctors office will no longer accept it. They said they tried to call the insurance to work it out, but couldn't get ahold of the insurance company.
E contacted his HR department to find out what was going on, they said we need to call the "Care Coordinator" to work something out.
I have been an emotional wreck today. I'm sad, nervous, angry, hurt, scared, and I also feel lost. I don't know where to go next. Right now, I'm putting off calling the insurance company for a couple of days, seeing as I'm a complete emotional wreck.
My mom has a friend from her work that just get a BFP from IVF #1. She's going to get her doctor's name for me so that I can call them and see if they take our insurance. If they do, I'll just go there, then call our insurance to straighten everything out. Maybe it's a good idea to get a second opinion.
I just feel like things were finally taking off. There was a light at the end of the tunnel. Now I can't see that light...I've just barely entered the tunnel.

News?

No news...I have my followup appointment with the RE on Nov 2. This is the appointment to discuss and schedule my surgery. I'm having a little bit of sadness about the surgery. If I have it, then I will never have my surprise "miracle" baby, but if I don't have it, I may never get my BFP from IVF, which is still a miracle. I know I will go through with it, it is our best chances of conceiving. It's just a little hard letting go, knowing that I will never get pg on my own. You would think I would be used to that by now...